you know looking through the times i have been dating and going through the period of figuring out what i want or who i want it really is a tough decision. reading another blog about insercurities, i think that i am the most insecure person out there. Afraid that if i fully submerge myself into a relationship, i would get hurt or make the wrong decisions. is there any way out of this feeling without losing all the hopes and dreams you want in the end. dont get me wrong i would love to get married and one day have a family of my own. many say im just picky and always ask for the best, but i think that even though i expect the whole world from this one guy i shouldnt lower my standard by any means. And of course this goes vise versa for the guy too. why do he have to settle for less when he can have the girl of his dreams. maybe i'm just an idealist but whatever it is its breaking me down emotionally and mentally. why does this have to be so difficult?
you know sometimes you think family is there to support you, but in the end spectrum they sit there and lecture you. they say they mean well ,but they dont realized that this conversation you guys are having can be avoided. I am the moment in the market for a new car cuz my accord decided to die on me. But the thing is, instead of going out on my own and buying a car right then and there, the family decided to put input into this. so now im sitting here without a car to take me to work or anything in between. Dont get me wrong, I love that they want to put their voice into this and try to help, but its the idea that they wont let me just go do it myself. Its not like i dont understand any of this, I do, but sometimes they need to let me do my thing.
The strength we have in who we are Is the strength in which makes us who we may become The people around you will give you encouragement The people around you may bring you down The people around may even not help But only you have the choice The choice to either listen or not We make our own destiny by either believing in ourselves We make our destiny by fulfilling our dreams Don't listen to the doubts and discouragement But do listen to the ones that loves you Be who are meant to be But dont be the sona of someone else We have to be strong We have to be ourselves We have to rise to the occassion and love ourself
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bong jen jen for u. recevied my simple gift of good mornig wrapped wit sincertiy, tied wit care n sealed wit a prayer 2 keep u safe n happy all day long!take care n good moring
is being the better person a great deal or is it something we tell ourselves so we make amends? or better yet what makes someone strong as an individual. people tell me that im a strong lady but sometimes i dont feel like it. I do have my petty arguments and angry times, but who can blame me, i am just human. as i go through life i see myself unable to pick myself up through this stage i have been through. i hate being the strong girl everyone comes for comfort or advice. where is my advice when i need it? where is my shoulders to cry when i am crying? being low drama or strong doesnt mean i dont need anyone there, it just mean i need someone close to my heart close by. then again, confronted by it, i will say that i dont need help and i will deal with it (sorry lil sis' you guys are only try to help). maybe it is my stubbornness that kicks in but what are we suppose to do? I am usually put on the spot and unable to articulate what i want or what i want to do. neways im just ranting so yea....
